December 20, 2009
Goodluck Charm.
It was hard to let you go, even though we weren’t anything but friends. Remember how we got the whole goodluck charm thing? I asked you to check if the Warriors won the game cause I was going home. You were feeling kinda sick, but you still checked for me anyways. Later you told me they did win. Their 1st win that season. I told you to get better so that we could talk more. The next day, when we talked, you told me you felt much better, and we called each other goodluck charms. Now, we don’t talk anymore. And I was so stupid this time last year, when I said I didn’t want anything to do with you anymore. And I have no excuses for that. My ego and my pride got in the way when I said that. I did this twice before already, when we didn’t talk. The third time was foreal now. And I can’t get myself out of it. I learned alot when we were friends, and I wish that we could see each other and how much we’ve grown from the past year. You as my friend was one of the best things that ever happened to me. You were really my first girl best friend. No matter what, we were there for each other. And now I’m mad at myself for losing our friendship. I can’t believe it took me one year to realize I made the biggest mistake of my life. We walk pass by each other everyday, and I’m pretty sure we notice each other. Well we have two classes with each other too. And I see you with your boyfriend, and it hurts to see you two, but it’s true, you can’t pick who you like, you just do. Wanna know something? My regular prayer is praying for my family, my future, and my friends. And for at the end, I pray for that girl to be happy. That girl that made me happy when we talked on aim almost every night, that girl that I only talked on the phone once or twice. That girl that I liked a lot and ended up losing her. That girl, I gave a sorry note that made your day. I pray that “That Girl” be as happy as ever. You’re right, I don’t have the balls to tell this in your face, or talking to you whenever. But hopefully someone gets this out to you. And hope you see this and make something out of it. Thank you goodluck charm, you were always there, and I was just a wreck, you’ve given me many memories to love. I’m sorry. And I was wrong.
December 2, 2009
This was ALL a Dream.
Last night I had the weirdest dream I’ve ever had. For some reason, Mr. Gould took his only chem class on a field trip to Texas or something. So when we went there, we slept at an old creepy house that had a celeb there. And since I was dreaming, of course it would be Demi Lovato -___- (I dream too much btw) So I bumped into her in the hallways or something and we just kept messing around with each other. Cupcaking even. Later, the class got out to go to some museum thing and when we came back, hella paparazzi were at the house. Looking for Demi. Everyone get’s in except for, uhmm let’s call her ‘That Girl.’ That Girl was stuck between the paparazzi, and couldn’t get her out. And for some reason, this guy had kidnapped Demi -___- So me and a couple of the people in my class went out to the back fence and saw That Girl there. But the guy was there with a taser with Demi. So to make matters safe, I looked out a hole on the fence and saw That Girl and she had no way in. So told her to sit still and I’ll come get her. She wouldn’t listen to me because of all the history we’ve been to. I told her I was sorry and said some emo stuff and we both teared up. Then the guy came up and was holding a taser on the side of her face. I noticed that he didn’t hear me so I knew he didn’t notice me. I saw a bubble gun that looks just like a real gun and took it. I opened the fence and put the gun right behind his head and told him to stop or w/e. He dropped it then the cops came and got him. We were glad we were friends again. Demi was still in the car and I got her out. But another dude took both That Girl and Demi but didn’t get far. That Girl and Demi both got away and he went back into the car. He tried to drive off until I shot the wheel with my bubble gun which actually had real bullets in it. He got out and I was really pissed off, so I shot him in the leg and he went through a glass window of a house. That Girl and Demi Lovato were both happy that I saved him, and nearing to the end of my dream, they both come walking to me from different directions… and I wake up. I don’t know if I chose That Girl, or Demi. What the hell did I drink yesterday?
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Post 100. One Tree Hill Quotes.
Sometimes i wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is There Still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable,left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.
Truth is still absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.
Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world...or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives. For better...or worse.
There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.
Because it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.
But once in a while people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quite persistence of a dream.
There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.
Someone once told me, Every song has an ending, but is that any reason not to enjoy the music?
Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.
Truth is still absolute. Believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.
Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world...or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives. For better...or worse.
There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.
Because it´s only when you´re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it´s only when you´re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has.
But once in a while people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quite persistence of a dream.
There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.
Someone once told me, Every song has an ending, but is that any reason not to enjoy the music?
Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.
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